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~ My Story ~
Before Christ –
Before God’s gracious and merciful regeneration of my life, I was a sinner to the fullest definition. I was a liar, a thief, an adulterer, a drunk, a malicious gossip and a flat out God hater. In my use, or abuse, of women, I was truly a murderer at heart – not physically, but spiritually. I cared only for my selfish, materialistic and prideful arrogance. I used profanity as communication, anger as a lifestyle and deceit as my justification. I grew up in the church and yet denied God. But praise be to God that He showed me, a miserable sinner, His grace, mercy and love. Only to Him is credit due!
His wake up –
On May 18th of 2001, God woke me from my stupor. While talking with Pastor Larry Sequin (Calvary de Taos, Taos, NM), God’s righteous conviction began to burn into my soul. I remember the exact verse that God used to execute His final blow of conviction just before His salvation. The blow left me never walking the same, talking the same nor acting the same. 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 “Do you not know that the unrighteous will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived; neither the sexually immoral, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor men who practice homosexuality, nor thieves, nor the greedy, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God.” (ESV) My life has never been the same.
Although I am not perfect, I am a new creation in Christ Jesus. Praise be to God that He convicts me in my weaknesses and convicts me through His word. I desire that my will comes into full alignment with His will. God has placed in me a desire to seek His fullness and glorify Him in all that I do. I may fail, but I will not remain as a failure. My prayer is that God continues to convict me of my unrighteousness and that I bless His name for it. It is my prayer that I always follow hard after God and be sanctified through His Spirit. It is my prayer that God holds me to the accountability as He does Ezekiel (read Ezekiel chapter 3).
God why me?
Often I have asked this very question? I have many times said to the Lord, “Lord how is it that you are using me is such ways? I don’t have a clue what I am doing? I think you have the wrong man. O’ Lord help me!” Truth is the Lord can use rocks and donkeys to speak for Him. For the last couple of years, the Lord has brought all types of people my way. He has brought the homeless, addicts, demon oppressed and possessed. He has brought the sick, the tired and the weary. More times than not, He has brought men my way. Not just any men, but men who profess to be Christians.
Challenge to introspect –
Test yourself and see if Christ Himself is indeed a reality in your life. If so, live in the reality of having been saved. The reality of experiencing Christ’s conversion is to be, as a style of life, about the Father’s business and in unison with the Holy Spirit. It is good, quite literally, to pray and mourn for the souls of the lost. When mourning comes to an end, go out with the full gospel of truth and fight hell over those souls, expecting to win. Good biblical preaching is a warring with hell, preaching with uncontrolled passion, speaking boldly in the Spirit, declaring the full gospel and pleading for souls to repent. Anything short of this is worldly, of the flesh and a disgrace to the gospel of the Lord Jesus Christ.
I highly urge all believers to spend much time with the Lord over Matthew 7:21-23. These words of Christ are a warning to every professing believer! May these words never be spoken of you, “… I never knew you.” The only assurance you have in your Christian salvation is this, are you walking in the newness of the Lord Jesus Christ today, right now? Is the hope, the living Christ, indeed in you? Examine yourself – unless you are afraid that the truth is not in you – 2 Corinthians 13:5. Do you know Him, or just know of Him?
“Two things I ask of thee; deny them not to me before I die: Remove far from me falsehood and lying; give me neither poverty nor riches; feed me with food that is needful for me, lest I be full, and deny thee, and say, ‘Who is the LORD?’ or lest I be poor, and steal, and profane the name of my God.”